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had that torn away by the very systems i live in<br>but everyone around me is just fine, just fine<br>nothings wrong, the monthly quota gets met, business is good, whatever other preoccupied bullshit that is of course so much more pressing and important than the current &#8220;political issue&#8221;<br>&#8220;i dont like getting political&#8221;<br>&#8220;im too busy&#8221;<br>&#8220;protests make me uncomfortable&#8221;<br>i dont get what i have to say to make the people around me understand that its not about <strong>their <\/strong>fucking comfort, or convenience, its not about them at all. its about compassion, and putting any shred of effort into fighting systems that are actively oppressing millions of people, it doesnt fucking matter if theyre halfway across the world you should still fight<br>two sides of the same coin, and neither will ever represent the people, yet america is so saturated in propaganda that criticizing someones favorite color of fascism earns you a spot as 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